it's three days till my world might click back into place ^.^

Kay…another story. I have yet to check for errors, so just ignore them when you see them. Rough outline for fist chapter



Garw was a land of massive dimension and varied landscapes. It stretched all the way from the blood ocean in the south to the Shadow Mountains in the north, and the whole land was circled with massive mountains that started by the ocean and ended in the shadow mountains where the sun never found its way through the layer of dark clouds that once had been summoned there by a powerful warlock.

In the east you could find the rich and beautiful forest of the elves where no man had set foot since a pact was made after the terrible war that had given the blood ocean its name. The elves rarely travelled out of their lands other than to trade, and no one dared stepping foot into their territory even after so much time past since the war.

Truth be told, none of the species had travelled much outside their own lands since the war. There was one city called Gahid, located in the middle of Garw that held all species and all those who wished to trade could come there without being in danger. All had agreed that no matter what went on outside the city, peace would be held holy within the city walls.

If you went a bit to the west in the land you would find wide stretched fields where the Wind riders lived, they were demons of sorts and even though they were friendly they were also quite shy and not often seen by others. The land of the wind riders ended where the wolf forests began. The forests stretched far and wide and if you did not know the land well it was an unfriendly place to visit, even more so because this was the land of the werewolves and they were the most territorial of all the species in the land.

In the old times you could travel safely through the Wolf forest and even though few werewolves would help you they would at least leave you be. But a new alpha had risen and word had it he was not a gentle leader. He would not tolerate any other species to step into their lands and so just the bravest of men dared do so.

The wolf forest had its border marked with a large river called Sinar and at the river bank on the other side began the border of the Shadow mountains where the vampires ruled, if you travelled a few hours into their land you would soon find yourself in eternal darkness, granted by the clouds above the mountains.

Here the vampires could venture freely without worrying about what time of the day it was as the sun had no rule over these lands. Few other species ever came here since the land held no life, save for the vampires and you risked ending up as their meal if you were unlucky. No one knew exactly how they kept themselves alive in these lifeless mountains and since this species kept mostly to themselves there was not much one could do to find out unless you were willing to risk your life for such information.

Further down the mountains where the clouds did not block the sun and the werewolves had no rule, there was a small city high up in the mountain hills. This was the home of the dragon riders, and this is where our story really begins.

The dragon riders did origin from the human race that was long since extinct, and though they looked much like humans they had a much longer life span and were not so easily killed. Legend told a story about a dragon and a human falling in love and the offspring of their love became the first rider.

In the Great War most dragons and their riders had fallen and only one dragon had survived, this was the great black dragon, Luther. He had bound himself to first king of the riders and even though kings came and went, Luther remained with the royal line. A few years back the old king had fallen and his son, Rayne had been bestowed the throne and also the link to the great dragon.
Rayne had the reputation of being somewhat untamed and even whimsical at times and he had caused his father many a grey hair through the years, so it was not with little concern the people and the dragon welcomed their new king the day he was crowned. Even now, a few years later, people still seemed to hold their breath, waiting for the king to make a mistake that would affect them all and Luther had his hands full trying to keep the youth in check.
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It was a sunny summer day and the mountain hills were cowered in rich vegetation and wild flowers as far as the eye could reach. Most people were outside tending to their gardens or just having a good time in the sun, enjoying the first days of summer. Inside the great castle walls was another story, the young king had just snapped at his whole council and thrown out various curses and insults before storming out of the room, stomping demonstratively as he rushed out. Luther, which for the occasion had taken on his human shape, sighed and tried his best to apologize to all the men in meeting before wandering out with a dark look in his yellow eyes as he went in search of the king, his black hair trailing behind him in a most impressive way as he left the room.

In his human form he was a tall and broad man, moving with deadly grace and elegance that made most people shy out of his way even when his piercing eyes were not fixed on them. His face was cut in almost too clean angles and you could rarely see any expression on his face.
Now however everyone could tell that he was more than a bit annoyed as he moved with determined steps through the castle halls, making servants flee by the sigh of him as he moved along. The dragon seemed to know exactly were he would find the king as he moved swiftly up the spiral stairs in one of the towers, stepping out on the roof and into the sunshine with a low growl as his eyes landed on the king that at the moment sat on the edge, dangling his feet of the wall while he stared at the landscape under him.

Had people not known who he was, no one would have thought he could be a king at first glance. He was a rather short and slim with long and golden hair that flowed down his back; his eyes were a bright turquoise that constantly betrayed his every emotion. Most often a small smile of mischief played on his lips, making him seem boyish in all ways and the impression was not helped by his youthful face that would have been described as angelically clean had it not been for that small smile.
If you observed him a bit longer however you would notice that he carried himself with pride and grace and the sort of arrogance that only comes with royalty.

The smile that most often was there was nowhere to be seen at the moment, Luther observed as he studied the king. Rayne barely offered the dragon a glance before staring out at his lands again, frowning slightly.
The dragon sighed deeply and wandered over to lean on the wall beside the king, looking out at the lands for a while as well before glancing at the boy beside him “You are the king, it is time you start acting like it” he growled darkly “those men down there are expecting you to lead them and in stead you throw insults at them, ‘old narrow minded piles of dung’ or not, they are there to help” the dragon said, quoting the king’s fine words from just moments before he had left the hall of meetings.

The young king huffed and gave the other man a sideways glance “how are they helping? Tell me that!” he hissed “they want to build a wall around the damn kingdom in stead of make ready the army! The werewolves are trying to take our lands and they want to build a wall?!” he almost shouted the last words, throwing his hand up in frustration “what happened to our people? We used to be brave and fearless and never let anyone threaten our position, and now they want to hide behind a pile of bricks like scared old men?!” he continued before falling silent, clearly waiting for the dragon to answer.

Luther would have smiled if he was the type to do so, in stead his eye twitched a little bit “they were brave because they used to sit on the back of dragons, breathing fire down on their enemies. I am the only one left now, and without their dragons they are no match for a werewolf. You know this” the dragon looked bored for a minute as he felt like he repeated him self for the millionth time that day. Rayne only pouted and refused to answer, waking an overpowering urge in the dragon to just strangle the kid “maybe the wall isn’t the best idea, but it’s that or flee” he growled and turned to lean his back against the wall, crossing his arms over his chest.

Rayne snorted and shook his head “then we might as well just flee, that is a better option” the king mumbled, suddenly looking defeated as he looked out as his lands again. The dragon sighed deeply, hating the position he was in. In his younger days he would have encourage the war the young king was talking about, but even with larger numbers it would be a losing war from the very beginning now that he was the only one of his kind left “I think we should” he finally answered, hating his own words, but the survival of the people was of more importance than the lands when it came down to it “there are other places out there with friendlier spices, we can start again, my king” the youth before him seemed to shrink with each word “your people is more important than these lands, Rayne, and we both know it. It’s what your father would do and it’s what you should do. Forget about the damn wall or going to war and order evacuation” the dragon said, trying to make his words sound like a suggestion more than an order since he knew how badly the kid took to orders.

The dragon almost held his breath as he looked at the king, a look of relief flashing over his face as the king nodded slowly “tell them to call for a meeting tomorrow in which I will announce it to the people, tell them I am sorry and that I let my pride come in my way. We will be following the mountains to the blood ocean” the young king whispered, hiding his tears well as he turned and got down from the edge, making his way into the castle again.

The dragon raised his head to the sky and sighed, his heart heavy as he too returned inside.

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The following day the air was tense as all the people of the small city stood gathered in the court yard, awaiting their king and his decision. The council members stood among them and by the looks on their faces everyone could tell that the news would not be uplifting.
A single horn cut the air, announcing the king as he stepped onto the balcony to look down at the many faces on the court yard. His hair was tied back from his face and a silver band adorned his forehead, he was dressed in the royal blue robes, and the banner of the dragon unfolded proudly beside him, spread wide by the wind. As was tradition Luther stood behind him on the balcony, dressed in black from head to toe.

At that very moment no one would have doubted that Rayne was the king as he looked down at his people with serious eyes before he cleared his throat, breaking the silence “we all know that the werewolves gave us the option to fight or flee. It seems the best decision for us would be to go south and find new lands. All those who wish to do so may follow my council. They will lead you to safety. I will however not be joining you on this journey” he paused as a gasp went through the crowd “this is my land, this is what our forefathers fought for and I will remain and fight, I will die for this land!” he announced, his eyes taking on a cold expression as he spoke “if we can no longer remain dragon riders and stay in our lands then I truly will be the last king! All those who wishe to remain with me may do so, I wish the rest of you luck!” he finished, ignoring the dark glare from the dragon as he turned and left the now buzzing crowd behind, walking with determined steps into his castle.

Oh…as a side note since I don’t want to ruin my happy entry from earlier, my uncle in Oslo is dying from...take a guess!...cancer. Two uncles in one year with the same illness? New record *wise nod* He’s been sick from different things as long as I can remember but he has never been deadly ill until now, they are guessing it will take a few weeks. All treatment has been stopped so he’s only on morphine now. It’s probably mean of me to say this but I am glad I never got too close to him, don’t know if I could have dealt very nicely with anything if I had loved him as much as I loved the other one.
My father is a whole different story though, he’s detaching big time to get through.

Went to see a friend as soon as I woke up today and had coffee and cookies on the balcony, then my brother, his wife and Gabriel came walking by and apparently they were on their way to our house so I joined them. Gabriel is laughing a lot now and my face seems to be very amusing to him, not sure if that’s an insult or not.
Also I learned that making a new armguard doesn’t help much when your arm is already black and blue, because the sting is just as bad even though I didn’t add more damage to the skin. Hurt a bit so I think I’ll let the bow rest for a few days *twitch* it might prove to be a hard thing to do for me.

Hmm…I’ve actually had a pretty busy day even though it was relaxing too, and the more activity I engage in the more bored I get come evening when people go home. I might go fishing in the river or something, but I think it might be too big yet to catch anything. Maybe I should torture Ra in stead? *sigh* coffee…that’s a good plan *goes to get coffee* So…yeah, scolded my hand a bit, but I found a cookie, so it’s all good.

Ah, we had a family dinner today but my childless brother *snicker* and his girlfriend didn’t come until we served coffee and ice cream. Still means we were six people around the table if you don’t count Gabriel. I like that I have a big family, makes me feel safe. And until a certain someone returns again I am the baby…well, I suppose Gabriel is the baby, but he’s, ya know, a baby….anyway…good day.
I think I’ll go riding tomorrow. Oh! Hahaha my older sister stole my wax strips (yes I have them and I use them, so sue me) to do her legs and she panicked when she realized that she would have to eventually rip the strips off again so she came running to me because she didn’t want to take them off herself, and when I did what she asked me to do she called me a sadist *chuckles* she gets an axe stuck in her leg and she doesn’t even blink but she can’t handle waxing her legs? I’ll never understand that girl.

So today was a nice day *wise nod* got up after 4 hours of sleep and wandered into a very sunny day. Went with Gabriel and his folks around the countryside to look at random stuff and just enjoy spring, then we went to their place and had a small bbq followed by a lot lazing around in the garden. I had a small dog leaning on one shoulder and a baby sleeping on the blanket beside me *smiles* felt a bit like old times when the whole family used to just hang out in the sun, talking and having a good time together.

Then I ran off to their tree swing that is tied to an enormous tree and just swayed back and forth looking at the sun through the leafs. I love it when I can just be alive and stop thinking about stuff for a moment. Getting through the million of hard days is worth it if I just get days like these now and then. I used to have only days like this once *smiles a bit* I suppose I can again.

A random thought…the meds I am on are supposed seriously kill my libido and make it hard for me to…finish. And you probably don’t want to know this but I am writing it anyway because I am bored and need to kill some time before I nod off and drift into Saturday morning…where was I? oh yeah, I wonder how I will be able to live with myself when my body picks up again after I quit since I am barely able to contain myself as it is *ponders* sometimes it’s a bit of a drag to be a young male even though I am not in my teens anymore.

*peers out window* green fields covered with wild flowers, rich forests, tall mountains and sunrise…I can’t complain about this *happy smile* and…Ra peering in my window *ignores the Cat and goes to sleep* muahahah

So, pretty darn good day today. Went with my father and brother into the mountains, my brother almost got a falling tree over him when they stared working in the woods, but in our family you learn to react and move quickly or you end up six feet under. So he got out without a scratch. Then we went to the mountain lake and started a bonfire, barbequed sausages and just had a jolly good time in the sunshine. Then we went home, drank coffee and I took a pretty long nap.
When I woke up we went to this small place by the fjord that sells fasts food and different sorts of snacks and stuff and ate burgers and fries and then we went to the cabin my parents are building. I got to work the circle saw to cut boards for a while before we stopped by my grandparents to eat cake. My grandmother still thinks I am too skinny and tried to feed me to death, so nothing new there.
When we came back we had coffee on the balcony in the last hour of sunshine. I’m now newly showered, and I smell of coconut because I stole my sister’s body lotion thingy. I’ve just watched the latest episode of supernatural which was awesome!!!
I feel more alive than I have in a long time. Just driving through the sunshine with the windows open, getting the smell of spring into the car was an adventure in itself.

Baby Gabriel has changed in a week, his face is cuter now and his eyes are grey. His mother handed him over almost before we got out of the car and told me to watch after him while she did some things she hadn’t gotten done when she was by herself since my brother is out on some business party. He stared at my hair for 14 minutes and he smiiiiled at me! then he babbled a little, then I fed him bottle and then he got bored and started crying, so I danced a waltz with him and he went into some strange sort of trance. Fell asleep on me and I put him in the crib, then the dog came and feel asleep on me and I put her in her doggy bed, then the cat came and fell asleep on me, and then I fell asleep *nods* the lady woke me up and fed me chocolate while we watched tv and then I went home. Doesn’t sound all that exiting, but I am noting this down as a good evening.
I am now officially worn out and shall find my sweet bed and my tiger teddy and then I’ll sleep.

Decided to go home today seeing as I have no more classes this week, taking my books with me. I just need to see people that know my story right now and no better place than the valley since everyone knows everything about everyone there *shudders* but I have some pretty good friends there and I miss them as well as my family. It’s strange how I could be isolated from them for years and now I need to see them all the time or I go crazy.
I should sleep at night all nights and get up at 5am. I feel very rested and I got a bunch stuff done, and still I don’t have to run to catch the bus. I can in fact sit here and do nothing for 30 minutes if I want to because everything is ready for departure. I’ve even eaten O_O
The only thing that isn’t positive is that I probably won’t fall asleep on the bus, which will make the trip that much longer.

On a brighter note; it’s a nice and sunny day, the birds a singing, the flowers are…flowering and it’s warm. I might sing a happy song as I walk to the bus stop. Or I might not *wise nod*

So, yeah. Still hadn’t fallen asleep by noon so I just gave up and got up again. I was going to get lost in the woods today but it’s raining so I’d rather not. I tried to make spaghetti… everyone knows how to make that, but apparently I suck at it *sulks*
Thinking about maybe taking a nap now to kill some time and then get up for a few hours before going to bed again.
Not very interesting, I know. But there ya have this Monday…or Tuesday? Not sure anymore. Think it’s Tuesday actually.

Edit: Okay so I am not napping, but I have moved to the bedroom. That would be called progress by some. The only mistake I made was to forget that the oldest girl in the family on the other side of the house has her room on the other side of my wall, and I shit you not when I tell you that she watches the “Mama Mia” movie at least once every day. I’ll admit that some of the songs makes my foot twitch, but I am not sure if it’s because I want to dance or if it’s because I want to kick the shit out of that DVD player.
Either way, on with headphones and then Imma watch a few episodes of the Mentalist.

Yeah, strange day today. Started out so deliriously happy and then I got really sad and then I was happy again, and then I acted like a fool and now I feel like a...well, fool.
Then there’s the whole melting my coffee machine thingy, called my parents to ask ever so humbly if they could sponsor me with a new one and had them freak out all over me. But at least I get a new cheap ass machine to make my life elixir.
Also my hero complex suffers big time because I can’t save everyone, not even a few, ya know. And it sucks. Especially since I hardly know how to save myself, I shouldn’t think I could help anyone else.
But all in all it’s all good. I love someone and they love me back, and the person I love the most in the whole damn world is finally returning to me after two long years. So in 6 weeks you will hear about nothing else but how happy I am, I hope…
I’ve had a big human shaped chunk of me missing for two years and now I get it back….strange line. Anyway, suppose it could always be much worse. Life is pretty much liveable. I guess it’s always liveable or else we would be dead.

I’ve been so afraid for such a long time that I thought I would never find the calm I used to know once upon a time. Now calm to me is probably half dead to others since I am pretty laid back.
But just now when I stepped outside for a smoke I took a moment to look at the sky and listen to the birds as they started to greet the morning and I remembered that I’m just me, ya know?
My mind is not a curse and my body aint a prison, and what is scaring me today will be defeated come morning.
So it’s really not that bad at all. I can’t fight the world or time so I might as well just flow with the stream again and greet each new thing with a smile like I used to.

I am tired of being afraid and alone inside myself and since I know how to open up and be with the whole damn world I might as well do that, eh? I used to be…just me once. Going with every emotion, crying and laughing as I saw fit. Then I started pretending to be happy all the time because tears were weakness to…him. And I refused to let him see them no matter how hard he tried to punch them out of me. He’s out of my life now so I suppose I can let go of everything and just be me again, just feel again for a while. And I am letting myself need people again because I don’t have to live life alone in any aspect. Suppose this demands trust, but I can do that too if I give myself a bit of time.

I just cleaned the whole damn place, did the dishes and a pizza is now in the oven. Think I might eat, read and go to sleep for a while. I’ve been tired since I got out of bed and it’s not wearing off. Suppose I didn’t sleep enough or maybe my flu is still not quite dead.
I was thinking about going for a walk and enjoy spring but I had forgotten all about the existence of insects and how they become bloodthirsty once the sun sets. So I am doing the walk tomorrow while the sun is still up me thinks.
So yeah…don’t really have anything interesting to talk about, but that never stopped me from talking…

I still can’t believe I cleaned so well O_O *yawns* On that note, I found the man I want to marry…he is…holy fuck. Anyone with "Hammer" as a last name ought to be perfect for me, eh? There’s just something about him when he’s on the screen, though it doesn’t seem to transmit into photo’s sadly. And he has fangs.

Went with a friend to relax and have a good time after a pretty rough day (and my flu is worse again) to say hello to her horse and watch her ride with he other people down on the range. She fell of the horse, hit her head and started having seizures. The ambulance came first and then they called a helicopter to take her to the hospital. I haven’t heard anything new yet, but they think she has some brain damage.
So…that was relaxing. Yeah.

Edit: She is fine, thank god. Turns out she has developed epilepsy out of the blue. And that is why she fell off in the first place. At least that can be helped somewhat.

So, things are turning to shit really fast around me and I am too exhausted to defend myself mentally at the moment. It would probably be best for me to just go to sleep and rest for as long as I can, since tomorrow (or today if you are picky…and you are) will be very damn hard on me. And I know I am being vague but I don’t feel like really uncovering all the shit so I will continue on like this *stubborn face* Maybe if I get some sleeping done and I am not sick as a dog or drugged out of my mind tomorrow I can handle things without falling into the abyss of the numb and distant.

I held G-man again and he farted on me…again and then fell asleep so heavily on my shoulder that it was impossible to wake him again. And I got to put a jacket and hat on him when they were about to leave. He slept through that too even with my fumbling in fear of breaking him *babbles*
I need a baby as medication for insomnia, got drowsy when he slept on me, with those cute sounds, and he was radiating heat. Then again, cats put me to sleep too and they’re less fragile.
Apparently I am his favourite person to sleep on and it warms my poor little heart.

Bah…I’ve become one of those people that fuzzes over babies. But damn, I am in love <3 I’ll make sure no one can ever hurt him! Gonna put a tracer chip in his arm *insane gleam in eyes* err…or just look out for him.
Oh, and he had brown eyes when he was born and now they are taking on a sky blue color and he's dark blonde so he'll probably darken to dark brown or black like my brother. I am the only one who didn't turn darker.

Mama they try and break me
The window burns to light the way back home
A light that warms no matter where they've gone
They're off to find the hero of the day
But what if they should fall by someone's wicked way

Still the window burns
Time so slowly turns
And someone there is sighing
Keepers of the flames
Do you feel your names?
Can't you hear your baby's crying?
Mama they try and break me
Still they try and break me

S'cuse me while I tend to how I feel
These things return to me that still seem real

Now deservingly this easy chair
But the rocking stopped by wheels of despair

Don't want your aid
But the fist I've made
For years, can't hold or feel
No I'm not all me
So please excuse me
While I tend to how I feel

But now the dreams and waking screams
That everlast the night
So build a wall
Behind it crawl
And hide until it's light
Can't you hear your baby's crying now?

Still the window burns
Time so slowly turns
And someone there is sighing
Keepers of the flames
Can't you hear your names?
Can't you hear your baby's crying?

But now the dreams and waking screams
That everlast the night
So build a wall
Behind it crawl
And hide until it's light
Can't you hear your baby's crying now?

Mama they try and break me
Mama they try and break me
Mama they try and break me
Mama they try
Mama they try hey!
Mama they try and break me
Mama they try and break me
Mama they try and break me
Mama they try
Mama they try

Another dream I want to type down

I was walking around in my undies in the middle of winter in a small town and I wondered why there was no traffic, after a while I ran into some people that laughed and shared a cigarette with me since I looked cold and somehow a cig was supposed to help that, I would rather have their scarves or something. While talking to them I found out that the world had run out of gas and electricity and all other things that make the world go around.

Next thing I knew I was in a war zone, dodging rockets and fire and god knows what, still running around in my undies. Some other people and I were trying to get to one of the last running cars in the world and by some stroke of luck we made it through and drove off. Then we suddenly entered a city that looked all neat and beautiful and not touched by the crisis at all. We pulled up to a bank to draw out some cash (dunno why) and the next thing we knew we were captured by some people that looked very human but weren’t. We were frozen down in some vault and when I came back to life again it was ages since my own time had past.

The not quite human people had taken over the planet and rounded up all the people in a giant building. I walked around for a bit, looking around and all humans I met looked like some patchwork Frankenstein monsters, walking around like zombies. In one room a few of the not human people had made a puppet show out of humans, making all the little not human children laugh.
So I sort of planned my escape seeing as no one seemed to be in a hurry making me into a puppet as well, guess that freaked me out more because they were so sure that I couldn’t escape.

Somehow I managed to sneak out around a whole shit load of guards and ran down to a river that was filled with not quite human people. They all had hair colored on many different colors and they were so happy and cheery and not evil looking at all. They just laughed when I ran into the water, but when my legs didn’t turn into a fish tail they stared and pointed and touched me all over, mumbling something about a “real human”.
Then they helped me into a city that was filled with docile, loving hippy not quite human people.
Turned out only a small part of the not human people were involved in the capturing of humans, keeping them a secret from the rest of the world, while feeding the legend that we were extinct. The nice hippy not quite human people took care of me, and gave me a new identity and appearance.
When they wanted to change the way I looked they just placed me in front of a big screen, then I got to pick my own skin tone, eye color and hair color. I ended up with bright purple and black hair, yellow eyes and a bit darker skin than I had. I looked quite hot *grins*

Don’t remember much after that other than walking the streets, getting a strange tube of something called “liquid fireworks” from some cute men. When I poured out some of the liquid from the tube it turned into sparkly small explosions. Then I stopped at the same bank I had been at when I got kidnapped, put a small micro ship of some kind into an ATM and drew out a lot of cash before I went to get myself a car and a place to live, starting my life all over again as the last living human.